I write as I am inspired by songs, as I have my music in play to comfort me and guide me in my thoughts and lead me to my tears. I listen so I can allow my mind to travel directed, allowing me less cerebral space, more room for my heart to feel…..just simply feel so I can see the depth of my vulnerability. I need to go there in order to realize fully who I am in this moment, in this space.
I have been in a mode of engagement and have heard the words but they are irrelevant. The why is because I have feelings attached to them which convince me I can inspire a shift where there is one possible. The problem is the shift is not for me to make, to feel, motivate, to guide, or to inspire. There are indeed times when the most loving act means being of clear mind and open heart in a way that hurts because it leaves me once again lonesome when indeed it is my desire to be coupling.
Love however, when it is truly healthy, includes allowing oneself to step back and take the risk of total loss because you know the other person needs space…open and without you in order to find who they are in a coupling, to find who they are if they remain singular, to experience time now minus me and see if it feels more suitable. With each passing year, I am discovering that romantic relationships are more complex because of the weight and content of the emotional baggage people often forget they can unpack and discard the contents of. You can even obtain new items and find complete joyfulness in them. I believe we can also obtain new luggage and set the older bags down safely and lovingly as we pick up anew, refreshed.
Not everyone agrees.
It comes to me with every loss and every acquisition, that life is a breath too short and I want to inhale over and again so I miss nothing. I want to be that part of nature that is wild and calm, beautiful and awe-filled, all in the course of my life. Passion and fullness, depth and connectivity, deep and abiding commitment, true friendship alongside a silliness of a playmate…..it is all available. However, in a romantic engagement, both parties need to see it and want it, crave it, value it, know it is so right, and then dive into it with a free and trusting spirit.
It takes a genuine inner strength to allow it, invite it, and accept it when it is right there in your grasp.
What are you doing?
Where are you in your love life today?
If you die tonight, are you lonesome or do you say that you are in a fine and healthy heart space?
My invitation for you is to consider the where of your emotionality and reception to love. There is a true disorder referred to as Failure to Thrive. Human begins literally die when they are not motivated to suckle and embrace the nutrition that comes in hand with love, touch, human closeness.
Build the Strength Within, love freely and openly……..believe, have faith, let it be.